December, 2011


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Dec 11

2011 Year in Review

2011 is nearly gone, and I as think back over all that has transpired in the last 12 months, it feels like a whirlwind of so many things that it doesn’t even feel like it happened. So I thought I would take a few moments and look back over some of things that actually did happen, for no other reason than to do so.

So I submit for your viewing and reading pleasure my 2011 Year in Review.

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1 Year Wedding Anniversary

Megan and I celebrated our first year of marriage together on February 6, 2011. Like most February days, it was pretty cold, but we ventured down to the Plaza to eat at Brio’s. One thing we both remembered from the wedding reception was that we didn’t really have time to enjoy all the delicious food, so we essentially recreated the menu and had a chance to take it all in properly. Amazing food with an amazing wife, how could it get any better than that?

Marrying Megan is the best decision I have ever made, and she has been a constant source of strength, encouragement, love, support and so many other things over this last year, and I simply could not imagine a life without her. It has been a blast to get to know her more, to grown in our love together and to enjoy the time we get to spend together. Continue reading →


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Dec 11

The Grind: On Atrophy and Discipline

The last 4 months have been an absolute blur. Most of the time I have trouble keeping track of where the time went, how fall so quickly turned into winter, how Christmas has come and 2012 is bearing down upon us with breakneck speed.

When life moves that fast, it can bring things into a strange sort of focus and change the way you perceive life. When every day brings a new clinic visit, going to the hospital, having some kind of procedure, etc., it sort of feels like every movement forward is a victory, every setback a defeat, but still every moment and every day is so crucial, so important. In such a context, there is both excitement and anxiety, hope and trepidation.

Not quite a month ago I was on my back in the hospital, barely wanting to move and feeling at the lowest point of my life. Now, I am back at home, feeling better and actually having some form of a normal life. To have such a dramatic change in such a short period of time, to be on an upward swing was an amazing experience, both going through it and in retrospect.

Eventually the dramatic changes stop, especially with stem cell transplants. After about 45 days post-transplant I have entered a period of relative stability where counts ebb and flow very gradually as I am slowly incorporating my brother’s stem cells, my immune system is rebuilding itself and steroids are both suppressing that immune system and preventing rejection. It has become (and will remain) a very slow, drawn out ordeal in which progress is agonizingly slow.

And that’s when it hits you. What I like to call The Grind. Continue reading →


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Dec 11

Merry Christmas

Megan and I had a craft night a few days ago, and decided to make up some handmade Christmas cards.

I decided to riff off another card I had tried my hand at, but this time with a more tangible aspect. It was fun and I think turned out quite well. Continue reading →


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Dec 11

Gone But Not Forgotten

Acrylic on canvas with some magazine and book cutouts.

The quotes were dug out randomly from a book I’ve never read I found lying on a shelf in our apartment, and I thought they captured a sort of tension between the carefree and the task of grappling with some of the most essential aspects of existence.

Plus, the deer make a nice touch.

Detail and full image below the jump.


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Dec 11

Quotable

Adoration is primarily an act of faith – the act of faith as such. God is not just some possible or impossible hypothesis concerning the origin of all things. He is present. And if he is present, then I bow down before him.

Then my intellect and will and heart open up towards him and from him. In the risen Christ, the incarnate God is present, who suffered for us because he loves us. We enter this certainty of God’s tangible love for us with love in our own hearts.

This is adoration, and this then determines my life.

- Benedict XVI, Christmas Address 2011


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Dec 11

More Spam Fun

Every so often I like to go through the spam filter here at deviantmonk.com and amuse myself with some of the varied and failed attempts by robots to clutter up my site with links to places that will more than likely bring one’s computer to a crashing halt. While the vast majority are obvious link-bait, some actually make an attempt at legitimacy. These are the gems I sift for so that my loyal readers can have a chuckle at the expense of syntaxically impoverished androids.

Below you will find some of the more noteworthy spam comments with my own snarky commentary.

Enjoy!

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Great article. I’ve enjoyed this contribution. Its nice to see every questions answered in a blog post like this. I will add this post on my blog and link to it. Thanks for a clear informative post, I’ve learned a lot. I hope to see videos though as I can be A.D.D and reading articles is not my favorite thing to do online. So what I do sometimes is just print the whole thing and read offline.

Thank you for completely plagiarizing my post by copying it to your blog! Especially since you later admit you aren’t even able to read it on your own blog! Print away, my friend, print away! Continue reading →


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Dec 11

New Camera

So for the last year or so I took on a bunch of freelance projects for the specific purpose of saving up some money to get the Canon 5D Mark II. Over the past few months, because of all the things going on with me, that kind of got put on hold, but was also complicated by recent rumors floating around concerning the Mark II’s hypothetical successor, the as yet unannounced Mark III.

In patience I decided to hold off on a purchase to see if something materialized, but all indications now point to a late 2012 release, if even then.

Fortunately, I was able to borrow my friends Alex’s Mark II for a day and instantly feel in love; even for a three year old camera it is an incredible piece of equipment. The warnings on Amazon.com about not renting or borrowing one are completely accurate. Continue reading →


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Dec 11

Raindeer

This year I decided to make Megan an early custom Christmas card, since right now every day seems to blend together and dates and times seem to not have as much veracity to the calendar as in the normal times of life. Continue reading →


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Dec 11

Pronunciation is Important!

The renowned Carthaginian general Hannibal is perhaps best known for his infamous crossing of the Alps to begin his invasion of Italy, but while reading Richard Miles’ Carthage Must Be Destroyed: The Rise and Fall of an Ancient Civilization, I was made aware of an incident that is, in my opinion far more robust in demonstrating the aplomb of Hannibal.

Hannibal had long been entrenched in the Italian countryside, and his tactical and military prowess, as well as the relative incompetence of opposing Roman generals, had determined that few pitched battles took place between Roman and Carthaginian forces. During this period Hannibal used the time to dig in his troops, forge alliances with local Italian cities looking for a better option than Rome, and prepare his forces for a protracted conflict.

The Romans eventually began to switch strategy from open conflict to attempting to provoke small contingents of Carthaginian troops into small scale battles, hoping for a an eventual victory by attrition. The Roman general Fabius was particularly adept at this form of strategy, even though it was quite unpopular among the leaders back at Rome. Nevertheless, Fabius managed to keep his troops in check, even though in grand Roman tradition they were itching for a fight.

Fabius and Hannibal thus engaged in a sort of cat-and-mouse game where Fabius would bring his army into plain sight to provoke an open conflict, even though he never intended one. Hannibal knew that an open battle could prove disastrous at this time, and himself had to keep his army from rushing into the fray. After all, supplies were limited and reinforcements were not immanent.

Plutarch relates how Hannibal made a choice to finally remove his army from Fabius’ reach. Finding native guides, he instructed them to take him to the district of Casinum, an area rich in pasture land. Unfortunately, Hannibal’s pronunciation was quite foreign to the guides, and they heard him say that he wanted to be taken to the district of Casilinum. Without knowing the mistake, the army broke camp and began to relocate.

Hannibal only realized too late that he had actually led his army into a trap. Casilinum was encompassed by high mountains with a river dividing it, lots of marshes, sand- definitely not the ideal location for an army. Essentially, Hannibal became pinned in by the terrain.

While Hannibal was on the move, Fabius was watching and shadowing. Knowing the topography well, he was able to position his troops along the heights surrounding Casilinum, with the remaining contingent cutting off the rear. Having boxed Hannibal in, it appeared that the Carthaginian threat could soon be neutralized.

Hannibal, upon discovering the mistake, was furious and had the guides executed for their mistake. (I find it equally likely that such a ‘mistake’ in hearing his pronunciation may have been a foil for more devious intentions, but that is beside the point.) But Hannibal was nothing if not tenacious and clever. Realizing that Fabius was no fool and that an ambush was immanent, he reached into his tactical bag of tricks and decided on a rather unconventional means of counter-attack.

The entire purpose of relocating to Casinum was to find good pasture land for the large contingent of animals that accompanied the Carthaginian army. Hannibal thus had burning brands attached to the heads of 2000 of the cattle within his supplies and caused them to be driven up the slopes towards the Romans lying in ambush. This occurred in the middle of the night, and the utter shock of this evidently sent the Romans into a frenzy, thinking that a counter-attack was underway. Fabius was not able to maintain control, and the majority of the Roman ambush was dispersed, allowing Hannibal and his army to relocate without further incident.

Disaster could have occurred for Hannibal, all because of a botched pronunciation.

But in the end, it’s all ‘puh-tato’, ‘pah-tat-to,’ right?


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Dec 11

Raw Thoughts On Stem Cells, Suffering and Spiritual Growth

The last few months have been kind of rough.

I’ve gone through three intensive rounds of chemotherapy, the last of which was meant to eradicate my immune system so I could get a stem cell transplant. Not an easy process.

I certainly don’t intend to bore you with all the details, but it has involved a lot of clinic visits, blood transfusions, medications, hospital stays and the like. Needless to say, it’s given me a lot of time to think and contemplate a lot of things, and in the moments of lucidity between mind-altering medications I’ve been trying to compose some very rough and raw thoughts about the whole process, mostly as a way of thinking things through for myself, but also perhaps to be a helpful insight into some things I have learned and discovered through this whole process, especially as I am still very much in the midst of it. The Prednisone makes my head spin quite a bit, so bear with me! Continue reading →